"Most of the things I do to hurt myself involve recreating the sharp pain of my childhood to avoid the dull pain of my adulthood." ouch. yep. my mom dealt with psychosis and bipolar when i was a kid. just now starting to realize how it's affected me.
book i just read had a chapter about joni & little green: abandoners, on mothers & monthers. great for women in translation month for reading :) & this is a lovely piece too
"Change as danger is programming that once kept me safe."
Reminded me of the poem, One Source of Bad Information by Robert Bly. It reads:
There’s a boy in you about three
years old who hasn’t learned a thing for thirty
Thousand years. Sometime it’s a girl.
This child had to make up its mind
How to save you from death. He said things like:
``Stay home. Avoid elevators. Eat only elk.’’
You live with this child, but you don’t know it.
You’re in the office, yes, but live with this boy
At night. He’s uninformed, but he does want
To save your life. And he has. Because of this boy
You survived a lot. He’s got six big ideas.
Five don’t work. Right now he’s repeating them to you.
"Most of the things I do to hurt myself involve recreating the sharp pain of my childhood to avoid the dull pain of my adulthood." ouch. yep. my mom dealt with psychosis and bipolar when i was a kid. just now starting to realize how it's affected me.
thank you for sharing <3
Searingly truthful line of prose, thank you Eliza.
"Most of the things I do to hurt myself involve recreating the sharp pain of my childhood to avoid the dull pain of my adulthood."
Evocative 💗
utterly beautiful thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing this! ❤️
I love how the phrasing sometimes expresses that more often then not there is joy.
Needed this, thanks Eliza
Gorgeous Eliza
book i just read had a chapter about joni & little green: abandoners, on mothers & monthers. great for women in translation month for reading :) & this is a lovely piece too
wow... I stumbled upon this piece from a re-stack and I'm so glad I did. So tender and touching. Beautiful writing <3
Beautiful 🤍
This brought tears to my eyes
gorgeously written, as always <3