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this was genuinely one of the most beautiful things i've ever read. thank u for putting such an ineffable concept and feeling into powerful words

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damn you put these feelings into words so eloquently i’m like in shock and definitely reflecting :’) this is insanely beautifully written and thank u for sharing this piece of you we all experience in weird different ways it’s amazing. so REAL

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Damn. I am crying. Thank u

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thank you xx

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wow. <3

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I’m so glad I got to read this. Nostalgia can be so dizzying.

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hi eliza: this was so fucking good. i'm subscribed. i'm in.

please read anything by lidia yuknavitch but especially chronology of water

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she was my professor for a semester in college and she writes about retinal flashes of memory, and never being able to return. you have hit that so poignantly here. you are a writer, you are an artist.

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me holding back tears in a doctor’s waiting room rn because of this bc eliza how have u yet again taken an extremely complex and heartbreaking emotion of mine (and everyone) and put it in such a beautiful, achingly relatable way!! wtf!! i cannot wait to hear more of your brilliance (in all its forms) in the new year <3

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"i know that i am supposed to shoot through time this way, but it seems profoundly unfair. i know that there is an evolved self, within me, who is begging me to release the iron fist i have on every passing second that slides away. i know i have plenty of time, more than i know what to do with, but it is still true that every single waking moment feels precious and confounding to me."

this whole thing is perfect thank you for sharing

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nostalgia is such an indescribable thing but you put so many of my thoughts into words!! slayed

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